Letter to Emily

I was not asked to post this by Anklebyter. Since Emily has not been banned on this forum if she wants to rant she can do so here and leave everyone else in peace.

Anklebyter wrote:

I'm posting this here, because I want her to see it, and everyone else too. It's super long, like, really super long.

An open letter to Emily...

I do not want a response, I do not want to read anything you have to say on anything I am going to say here. In fact, despite the fact that I know you are going to respond, I'm not going to give you the satisfaction of responding to anything else you have to say, about anything.

You are an absolutely horrible person, in absolutely every single way possible. No, you have never been liked, let alone loved. That is because of who and what you are, the things you say and do, NOT because of anyone else. You cannot blame Rhonda or James for your upbringing or how you were raised, THEY DID NOT RAISE YOU. Stop all your stupid fucking bullshit already. You are not sorry for anything you have ever done, you aren't even capable of feeling that kind of emotion. You are, very much, a sociopath, whether or not you have been diagnosed as such, or want to admit it. The way you treat people is classic, textbook, sociopathic behavior. Pretending to be crazy and in a manic state isn't going to keep you out of trouble forever. Just because you haven't yet been arrested does not mean you never will. That false sense of security you have there is going to bite you in the damn ass, and you'll only have yourself to blame.

No one has EVER done anything to you, literally, no one. YOU and YOU ALONE are responsible for ALL of the bad shit that has ever happened in your life. It is all a direct result of the things you have done, you do, the things you have said, the things you are STILL saying. Lying to yourself isn't going to make everyone else believe your lies. No one, and I do mean NO ONE believes a damn word you say. Some of the people you pretend are your friends on social media, actually aren't even real people, you made them up. Some of the people you claim are your "followers" on social media, are fucking bots. I know they're bots, BECAUSE I RUN THE PROGRAM THAT SUBSCRIBED THEM TO YOU, dumbass. I have said this multiple times over the last year, but you STILL don't fucking listen, just like always. You NEVER listen to anyone else, including your actual doctors. You lie about everything, even to them, and you don't realize that you give your own lies away. Take, for example, the fact that YOU told doctors you have eczema and asthma, but yet not one single doctor has ever diagnosed you with it. They indicated it in your chart, because you TOLD THEM TO. If you actually had either condition, it would be indicated as a diagnosis, an actual one, not simply a statement in your chart. Even the medical records that you shared on paper state, very clearly, that the patient (that is YOU) made the statement that she believes she has those things....NOT that a doctor diagnosed them. If you can lie about something that fucking stupid, so blatantly, and then provide everyone with the proof of your lies....there is NO reason why anyone should, or would, ever believe anything you have to say.

Stop saying you don't know who people are, don't remember the things you did and said, don't know what kind of shit you pulled on countless RP sims and in their groups, on websites, various social media. Everyone, and I do mean everyone, including people in your rl that you keep linking to on FB, know that it's all bullshit and you're lying. You have a history of lying about everything and have your entire life, which is exactly why no one liked you as a kid either. The shit you claimed about the special olympics doing background checks is 100% bullshit. They do NOT do background checks on children that participate (never have, never will), and ANYONE in a special ed class (which you very much were in) in school, can participate. You got involved because your special ed teacher signed you up for it, and that's the end of that. You pull this shit every single time you pretend to be manic because you think it will get you out of trouble if people think you're just some, and pardon my use of this word I hate it but others have used it.. "retarded girl" worth pitying. It's not going to work this time, no one is going to believe your chicken little bullshit that you're in a manic state and that's why you've gone off the deep end, again, for the THIRD time this year alone. After a while, crying wolf gets you nothing but being alone for the rest of your entire life. That's exactly what you deserve, to be alone for the rest of your entire life, unloved, un-liked, fucking ALONE.

The damage you have done to people, to communities, to your own damn family, is absolutely, without a doubt, unforgivable. You will NEVER be forgiven, for anything, because you are a grown ass woman that damn well knows better by now. This is not anyone else causing this, it is all you, and only you. No one is being paid or manipulated by anyone else to treat you badly. In fact, you're not being treated badly at all, though you do deserve it. You are being treated accordingly, based on the way you act and the things you do and say. If you weren't such a fucking monster of a person, you would have friends and family. You would not need to pretend to be someone or something you're not. You would not need to lie about being involved in rp, which you are currently not involved in because no one in their right mind would ever rp with you. You would not be trying to pretend to be in findom, and pretending people, guys, actually are paying you, when we are all well aware that no one is paying you for shit nor would they because you can't even spell, much less emote. You STILL don't clean, shower and take care of your home. What kind of guy would EVER want to do anything remotely sexual with you when you can't even clean yourself properly, the stench from that is horrendous (and a huge part of why you don't leave the house, because people can smell you from a mile away). Let's call a fucking spade a spade here...the only penis you have ever seen or will ever see, is in porn. No vagina would ever get anywhere near you either, so save the "I like both", bullshit. You made claims of being pansexual because you got called out for your lack of experience with other people and it made you feel embarrassed. You wouldn't need to feel so embarrassed if you behaved like a normal human being to people, if you cleaned yourself up now and then, if you took care of not only your home and body, but also your life.

If you took responsibility for yourself and EVERYTHING you do and say, you could move on, though the world will never, and I do mean never, like you. But you can't take responsibility for anything. That's why you give half assed apologies. Any apology that comes with a "but" is not a real apology, is not sincere, and is a huge load of horse shit, especially coming from you. Let me reiterate something I said earlier, because it begs repeating....You are not treated badly, you are treated accordingly. If you were not such an asshole, more people would help you do the things you cannot do, learn how to be a better person, learn how to actually make art, build, be a better person, and generally tolerate you better. But, you ARE an asshole, a complete asshole, that has an excuse for anything and everything you do because you can't possibly be responsible. You got that load of shit from your grandmother, who RAISED you to be a complete asshole. She was an asshole and she raised you to be one. She let you behave like the universe revolved around you and that you could do no wrong. She was a racist, a bigot, a bitch, a sociopath and a narcissist. That's what she raised you to be, and now you are long past being able to be fixed. You are broken, in every way possible, because NO ONE ever told, or even now tells you no in your life. The reason no one ever tells you no, is because you literally have no one in your life. If your friend Aki was a real person, she would straight up tell you to cut out the bullshit and be a better person, that you're behaving like a fucking cunt, 24/7 and she wouldn't be able to tolerate you either. That's what a real friend would do. The fact that "she" always agrees with you, believes you and pretends to stand up for you sometimes during your "live streams" serves to tell people one of two things, either..A-she's not real and it's you pretending to be her, or B-She's more mentally deficient than you are and can't see your bullshit for what it is. Most people probably think it's A, and not B, and I'm inclined to agree. When you do your livestream videos, EVERYONE and I do mean everyone, can see that the number of views you have is directly related to how many tabs and instances of those videos you have open. That is not your camera doing that, it is you trying to make it seem like more people give two flying fucks about you. When you make claims of your mouse or system being touched, it's actually your system throwing a fucking fit because you have too much shit running, too many tabs open, too many programs doing different things at once. That is BASIC IT, they teach it at elementary schools these days, so you have no excuse to not know this.

I, much like the rest of the world is, am tired of reading your constant bullshit, constant lies, constant stories, constant shitty treatment of the entire world. You treat everyone as if you are this amazing person that can do no wrong, as if the world is jealous of you, as if you have talent, as if everyone thinks you're famous.....Newsflash idiot, NONE of that is true. You are not even a good person, much less an amazing one. Everything you do and say is wrong, always, and never right, ever. No one in the world is jealous of you, the entire world feels sorry for you. You have no talent, at all, in anything, that's why you steal others' work and pretend it's yours. You are not now, nor will you ever be famous. Even many of the kids you went to school with don't remember you, because they chose to put you out of sight and out of mind, because you were that shitty of a person growing up.

No one knows where you get the ego you have, other than from your grandmother who was clearly an even worse person than you are, to raise you this way. It's not a well deserved ego, at all, and never will be. You very much ARE a criminal and support criminal activity constantly. You evade bans and blocks, make up new accounts, create fake people, lie constantly, evade being held in court by pretending to be crazy and manic, treat people like shit under your shoe...you are flat out fucking awful.

Do the world a favor, grow the fuck up already and just stop all your bullshit, all of it. You don't need to learn how to grow up, you're a grown ass adult already, there is no "learning" involved here. You're either a shit person, or you're not, and you, very much are. No amount of "I was raised wrong", excuses the way you behave NOW, as a grown adult. It may have explained the way you behaved as a child, but not now. Nothing you can do or say will get you out of the shitstorm that is coming. It may not be immediately coming, as we have all seen, but rest assured, your shit will be all put out there on the line and you WILL be held accountable. Just because it doesn't happen immediately does not mean it never will. You WILL be held legally responsible for all of the shit you have caused, all the heartache, all the lies, all the people you have dragged into your crap because you just can't help but feed your own ego and feed into this mess more by mentioning other people when someone forces you to go in for proper treatment or contacts authorities. This is what you have always done, named other people as the source for your behavior, without realizing how much trouble you cause for people when you do that, or the damage it causes people, very REAL damage. That's because you don't actually give a shit about people, how much you hurt them, how you make them feel, the lies you tell others about them, or what it causes them in their rl. You think everything and everyone is a fucking game, because everything in life IS one to you. That's how your shitty ass grandmother raised you, and now you STILL behave that way.

The really big problem is that you took it way too far this year, way too fucking far, and now you can't come back from it. You crossed lines that cannot be uncrossed, you have done things that you can and will be held responsible (legally responsible) for, regardless of any mental or physical health issues you have. You, for once, cannot get out of any of it this time. It may take years before everything is finished, but it damn well will. The cases, and yes that is multiple, against you are building up faster than you realize. They are already rock solid, but you're giving more and more to them every single time you open your damn mouth. Every single bit of trouble you get into is more evidence for these cases. Every lie you tell, compounds your eventual sentence. Every single time your name gets mentioned, it gets reported to the state of PA. Every post you make on any and all websites increases the amount of trouble you'll be in. You've already been warned about benefits fraud and are already under investigation now, as you read this, for that specific thing (a separate case, I might add). You lied far too much, in too many instances, about too much stuff, and now you can't keep it straight. You are going to lose ALL benefits that you have at this point, because you KEEP lying.

Go the fuck away, get off the internet for good-you're making things worse, stop apologizing for shit and expecting anyone to believe it, just fucking stop everything. NO ONE BELIEVES YOU, NO ONE EVER WILL, YOU ARE A HORRIBLE, AWFUL, TERRIBLE, ARROGANT, EGOTISTICAL, NARCISSISTIC, SOCIOPATHIC, LYING PIECE OF SHIT. You deserve every last bit of trouble that comes your way, and I will be damned if I will let the damage YOU have caused, cause any more problems for anyone else, anywhere, ever again. I'm not going to give you the satisfaction of knowing the damage you've actually caused others, because we all damn well know you absolutely get off on that shit, all sociopaths and narcissists get off on that shit. But I am DONE sitting by and letting you drag even more people down. You're doing it in DA now, you've done it for years, someone needs to take a real stand against you. It's not a fucking game, Emily. Life is not a game. Other people are not merely characters in some made up movie in your head.